Melt my heart

Today was really an intense and emotional day for me. It started this morning when Cameron woke up. He was inconsolable. He was so sad. I gave him his bottle of milk and told him I had to take a shower. He was not having it. I was actually needing to wrap up a couple of things in the kitchen so I didn't hop directly in the shower. After about 5 minutes, he was still crying, so sad. I went back into his room. I tried giving him some hugs to reassure him all was okay but he did not want me to let go of him. So I held him. Eventually, he wanted his bottle but got very upset when I tried to put him back in his crib. So I held him while he drank his milk. He watched my face and touched it like he was a little-ittle again. Connor was getting jealous by this point but Cameron was feeling much better. I got them dressed and finally got in the shower.

Once I got to work, Mom called disturbed by the news in the Vietnam adoption world. It IS incredibly disturbing. I don't really want to discuss it but if you are interested, here is what the US has found during their investigations of adoptions since Vietnam re-opened in 2005. This, on its own, would have made today a very intense and emotional day for me as well as everyone whose life is touched by Vietnam adoptions.

This evening, the boys were so cute. When one made the other upset, I would tell the offender to say he's sorry and hug the upset one which they did and it was the sweetest! However, night time tonight was the BEST. The boys were both very hyper which is a very good indicator that they are very tired. They were playing and being so silly. Connor was playing with Mike when Mike told Connor "Amo Connor" to which he responded, "Amo Daddy... Amo Nana... Amo Titi." Then he looked at me and said "Amo Mommy." I could have just burst. Yes, I was fourth in line in getting Connor's declaration of love but still! My baby just told me he loved me all on his own. I could have just cried and wanted a hug but then he tipped over (I think Cameron had something to do with that) and it was back to the hyper playing for all.

AND when we did finally get these energized little guys all tucked in with their mimi's (aka blankets), mama's (bunnies) and Elmo(Connor)/cow(Cameron), as we were leaving and telling them we loved them, they blew us kisses.

I love my boys so much!